I wish I could nobly say my life is a beacon of peace and love for all to gaze upon. But it ain’t. I wish people looking at my life could easily discern I followed my bliss, the Golden Rule was at the forefront of all my decisions, or no matter what the question was, love was my answer.
With all of the self-help and new age books I’ve read, I expected to be glowing, enlightened, and levitating by now. But I ain’t. Instead I have developed a smug sense of spiritual superiority, which hides my frustration at not being able to conjure things out of thin air yet.
My life’s message feels more like a blend of: “Make plans and never follow through on them and then wonder why nothing has changed,” “Enjoy simple pleasures like a piece of cake and then feel bad that you liked it,” “Live vicariously through books,” “It’s safer to sit and think than go out and live,” and “Never admit to anything if it makes you look bad.”
I would like my message to be “She was so genuine and happy, always true to herself, and never sacrificed her integrity.” Or “By following her present joy, future success immediately followed.”
To achieve said message, I would start by finding out what makes me genuinely happy, focus on always being true to myself, and then doing what makes me happy.
The core of my message is to just “Be happy in the moment.” I need to stop reading into bad things that happen to me, stop overanalyzing everything, and learn to relax. I need to start living from my heart and less from my head. I need to stop thinking about how other people will view my actions. I need to stop judging myself. I want to have my cake and eat it too and then not worry how many carbs it had. When in doubt, just go with the flow.
My first step in making my new message a reality will be to smile more.
